When I look back over the last 4 months I have experienced every possible emotion.
From the thought I was going to die and not see some very important family milestones at one end of the spectra to the absolute relief / pleasure of walking unaided outside. These have without doubt been the most challenging months of my life thus far and I look back and thank each and every person that has asked about me, visited me, and cared for / about me. Avelia could not have expected this when she married me less than two years ago but she along with my children have been amazing especially when they were in a state of shock and panic, please keep the support coming over the next few weeks.
You do really find out who does care at times like this and for the few people who, for whatever reason just got on with their lives and have not been in contact at all, I am sure you had your reasons to not be in touch, even if I can't comprehend them ….
On the whole I am nearly there, well as far as I can expect to be on the recovery road.
Fatigue is much improved and all that remain as ongoing issues are a face that the LHS has a numb sensation but is normal in appearance, this is likely to be permanent and some muscle issues in my knees which the Physio is slowly sorting. I am also getting some counseling on how to cope with the major change I have experience to my life.
The big question is if I am fit enough to return back to work, this will be decided over the coming weeks by my employers, I feel I am and have still got loads to offer.
Christmas was a quiet but busy time, I saw all my children and their partners, Father Christmas arrived on time, with a lot of help from Amazon Prime. Stress levels were quite high at times but unbelievably the tree and decorations stayed up till twelfth night.
I have occupied myself by setting up my train sets again and am pleased to say one of the sets is fully functional again for the first time in 4 years.
The next few weeks are going to be both very anxious and stressful for me as I try and determine what route the remainder of my life will take. I am sure whatever the outcome we will make it work and adapt accordingly, all I ask is to be treated like Andy Hill and not Andy that has had a stroke.
In most ways I am as I was if not just a little slower but still faster than most.
I trust 2018 is both prosperous and rewarding for you all but remember to work to live and not live to work.
Hi, better late than never….
Yesterday was a funny day, I slept till 9.30 then had breakfast and slowly loaded the car with loads of rubbish for the tip. It took ages and nearly killed me, good job the boss was at work.
Back inside for a quick rest then on PC for half an hour before I made a sandwich and then bed for a couple of hours.
I was rudely awakened by the sound of a trumpet lesson downstairs, then Avelia took me to hospital via the tip, perhaps she should have disposed of me there, to hand my heart monitor back in.
Home for a nice tea, then watch an hours TV with Mrs H, then it was bed for me.
I am still improving on the tiredness front but by golly it is taking some managing but still feel confident about my time line with respect to getting back to work. Sorry guys I will be back.
It is very difficult as when I get up in a morning, I feel like a fraud and that I should be at work, but by 11.00 am I am totally knackered having done little. But I am on the mend that is the main thing.
Today is an important one for me as we have a long standing invitation to a 70th Birthday party, whilst I am aware I can’t go for long, I am determined to show my face, this will be hard as it is an evening thing and I am normally in bed before it starts, so I will be going to bed this afternoon just to give myself a fighting chance, I hope it comes off as it will be another milestone achieved as it will involve the use of public transport.
3 months ago, I could not begin to imagine that these things. that we all take for granted, would become such important challenges to me.
Avelia is teaching this morning and Laura has got a trial shift at Next, do they really know what they are getting, she will do very well if she puts her heart in to it, which I am sure she will. But they don’t do clothes my size so what use is their staff discount though she does see it as a major plus.
What I would give to be that age again.
This morning, I am going to potter and measure for some new blinds for the conservatory windows and then we will have totally eradicated the “Gothic” look in there that was left by the previous owners…
I am really missing interaction with people and can’t wait to continue my rehabilitation which hopefully, after a very busy medical week, next week, will involve me introducing this knackered body back into a bit of public life. I just have to get rid of my self conciseness that I do not appear normal, if I ever was, as the left hand side of my face is still numb and has dropped a little, it is worse when tired, also I tend to shuffle a bit, again when tired. I know very minor things, but these are the things that are on my mind, they will hopefully continue to improve. When very tired I occasionally also dribble slightly from the LHS of my mouth, I suppose this is just like a normal Saturday night for most people.
Hope you all have a great weekend.